“Uha uha uha” palagay ko yan ang tunog ng iyak ko nung isilang ako ng aking mahal na ina. Hindi ako masyadong sigurado kasi sino ba naman ang makakatanda ng tunog kanyang iyak di ba? :) Basta for sure umiyak ako nung mag hello earth ang beauty ko.  Siguro hindi lang yun nung iaanak ako, siguro good for several months ganon hanggang napalitan ng tunog na “inay ko huhuhu”. Kaylan nga ba yun?

“Aba at napulong na ang maganda kong anak.” (Wala pa syang choice non kasi panganay na babae ako kaya maganda na din nung panahong yun :) Palagay ko yun ang sinabi sa aking ng inay ko nung magsimula na akong makarecognize ng mga bagay-bagay sa paligid ko. Yung panahon siguro na kahit yung nahanginang tela basta gumalaw laruan na sa akinng paningin, o kahit anong may kulay at kumikilos kausap ko na. Kaylan nga ba yun?. Ang sayang balikan sana kung totoong naaalala ko yun pero hula ko lang talaga sa ngayon. Hello…sino ba naman nga kasi makakaalala ng pagkasanggol niya :)

“Naku at nag poopoo na pala ang aking prinsesa” (kagaya nung naunang reason na nasabi ko na wala choice hehe) Siguro yun ang litanya nya sa tuwing maglilinis sya ng pinagkalatan ko..palagay ko non di pa ganon kauso at ka accessible ang diapers kaya lampin na nilalabhan pa ang pinagdumihan ko ng bonggang-bongga. Parang ang hirap no? Pero chicken lang yan sa inay ko :) Kaylan nga ba yun?

“Huwag kang makikipag-away, masama yun”. Ito medyo naaalala ko. Aminado naman kasi ako na hindi talaga ako kabaitan habang lumalaki ako. (Ngayon iba na mabait na talaga ako kahit itanong nyo pa sa nanay ko) Ito yung mga times na kung hindi ako umuuwing umiiyak ako siguro yung dahilan ng pag - iyak ng iba kong kalaro. Siguro talaga lang na inborn na sa akin yung hindi paaapi sa labanan (Go Gabriella yata ang drama ng buhay ko hehe) Kaylan nga ba yun?

“Papasok ka na bukas, magbabait ka sa school ha?” Yan ang first day of school. Ang saya-saya ko non kasi at last papasok na din ako. Ang daming bata sa school. Ang daming kalaro at may baon pa. Sobrang excited talaga ako sa pagpasok. Kahit nga yata walang baon papasok pa din ako kasi madami pwedeng kausap sa school :) Kaylan nga ba yun?

Yun ang ilang memories ng pagkabata ko na naaalala ko at inimagine ko nung bata ako. Hindi na yata masyadong nadagdagan yun don sa formation stage ko kasi nag abroad na inay ko. Kailangan nya gawin yun para tuloy pa din ang pag-aaral namin. Hindi ako sure kung gano sya katagal na nasa ibang bansa. Pero alam ko mahirap yun kasi naranasan ko rin for a year ang mawalay sa pamilya at ang hirap ramdam ko talaga. Samantalang sya ilang taon ang tiniis para sa amin. Namiss namin sya sa aming paglaki pero namiss nya din kung pano kami lumaki. Alam ko di pa man ako isang ina na mahirap yun. Naisip siguro nya kung pano kami nagdalaga at nagbinatang magkakapatid. Nag graduate kami, nakatapos ng di sya naka attend ng graduation ceremony syempre kasi kelangan kumayod ng husto. May mga bagay na hindi nya alam sa amin. May mga ugaling hindi nya alam sa amin. At alam ko nag adjust at nag aadjust pa din sya sa amin. Hanggang kelan? Wala yatang ending at expiration ang pagiging isang ina kaya palagay ko lifetime nya pa gagawin yun. (Goodluck sa yo Nay =D)

Alam ko hindi kami masyadong naging close. Yung as in close na close na you know all my secrets kasi nakahiyaan ko na (nagbablush ako habang sinusulat ko to). Hindi din ako masyado showy sa feelings ko. Hindi ko nga matandaan kung nasabi ko na ba sa kanya ang “I Love You” pero naniniwala din naman ako na action speaks louder than words. Ipinapakita ko naman sa kanya na mahal ko sya at mahalaga sya sa akin, sa aming lahat. Siguro sa linggo. Sasabihin ko na sa kanya :) (Sana di ako mahiya :) 

Alam ko walang perfect person. Hindi man perfect person ang inay ko, hindi man perfect wife ang inay ko, o perfect mother kaya, kung muli akong ipapanganak pipiliin ko pa din ang pinakamaligalig at pinakangalngalin kong ina :)

Whoa! It’s been several months since I last visited my precious one (smw). I missed writing… but then again, I don’t have any idea what to write :(…soon smw i will…

(I have been thinking and trying to write an article about this experience of mine but I don’t know how to start or I don’t have the time or maybe I don’t have the courage yet…Maybe now is the perfect time. Thanks Ate Joyce for the info.)

I always pray at night for the longest time I remember. In fact I prayed when I’m afraid, when I’m sad, and sad to say sometimes when I’m happy. Praying especially before bedtime has become an integral part of my system. I felt bad if at times I fell asleep without doing it..(when I got knock-out because of blah blah blah :D ) It is my way of establishing a personal relationship with Him,of talking to Him, or worst bargaining with Him. This goes for a good years of my life.

When we pray we always think that God will answer it. And as for me, I’m very optimistic that He will answer my prayers with a big YES. And when it does not happen yet, I always think that it’s not yet the time, or He is still busy in answering others that’s why it’s taking time.

I have this big request from Him that I have been praying for years. For more than 10 long years, I have been praying consistently and persistently waiting for the answer, a YES answer from Him. In fact, I have also asked and gave signs on Him thinking that maybe it’ not yet the time.

Until one day, I was attending a CARE class in Bahrain when I come across with a person who will make me realize the answers God has replied on our prayers. That makes me do some thinking with the belief I had for a long time. It came to my senses that Yes maybe she is right or definitely Yes she is right. That God offers three answers to our prayers whether we like it or not. The YES if it will be good for you. The WAIT, it’s not yet the time. And the NO, it’s not for you.

And now I know that maybe HE has answered NO to my prayer, to that special request because it will not be good for me or better yet He has a better plan for me. And I am so excited and eagerly looking forward on His wonderful plan for me.

So when you asked God for something…listen eagerly to Him. It maybe a YES, a NO, or a WAIT. Just think that He has a wonderful plan on you.

God bless ^_^

(I have published this article last year right after my birthday. I just have my birthday yesterday, and again im posting this because people are asking me the same question hahaha…maybe it will help to save some of my breath hehehe)  

  “Are you not planning to get married?” “You’re not getting any younger?” Same old questions I kept on hearing maybe for around five or more years now. Eversince I have blown my 25th candle, it goes on like this especially during birthdays. Funny at times. Somewhat irritating to ears sometimes because you keep on answering those same questions (somehow it was given in the native tongue) over and over again with the same answers. But the thing is, these same people just don’t buy the responses I gave.

    There could be lots of reasons why men and women remain to be single even after thirty (Ehem..I’m one of them :D ). Several magazines have discussed the issue over and over again especially during Valentines season.  It has made a great deal of sale whenever one talks about this topic (im not going to say it’s an issue here :D ).  But somehow, the idea is quite a catchy one. I don’t know for others, but I’ll be stating some reasons here, some my personal, some I have heard, some I have read and some just a guess :).

    It’s my choice syndrome. Some say it’s their choice to remain single even after thirty, forty or even for a lifetime. It may be due to past life experiences that somehow create turmoil or trauma. Give up on the idea of it and promised not to give it any more a try. These people would most probably end up single forever.

    Waiting for Mr. Right could be the other one. Somehow, they say that Mr. Right has not come around. That they won’t settle for something lesser than what they deserved to have. The idea sounds good but very perfectionist. Hope they find the Right Guy in the Right Time.

    “I am so busy that I don’t have time for that kind of stuff”. The I am a busy man/woman thing. They generally think that being on a relationship would be a burden for them to accomplish their goals set in mind.These are the dreamers and as what a popular song of Kenny Roger says “Dont fall in love with a Dreamer”.

    It’s not yet the time. I know God is working on His purpose on me. In His time, His will be done. This is my guiding principle here. I know God is still weaving on his plans for me. I know, it is taking long, (friends and relatives just wait :D ) and it will take even longer but I can wait. I will wait until such time that the gift He is wrapping for me will be delivered right before my very eyes. And until such time comes, I know I will still be very busy answering the same questions again and again.

I celebrated my birthday yesterday. I don’t know if I have used a right term since there was no celebration at all :D. I felt happy that over the years, friends (long time ago friends and new friends) and relatives (close and not so close) were able to remember this day. I don’t know if I have to send a thank you note to facebook management for giving reminders to them (hehehe) or what. But the thing is they invest time in greeting me. My warmest thanks and sweetest smile to those people. Don’t you worry. I’ll greet you too in your birthdays (just joking hahaha).